Sorry Mom (Poem #2)

Mom,
I lied when i said
I was out with some friends
I gained your trust after all these years
I’ve been very careful not to break it

if you ever ask about what i did
all i could say is,
he made me do it

I was given enough love
treated like a queen
I was given what was best
now I wonder how i managed
to trail behind him
and forget what i deserved

You asked me if I was alright
I lied and said
I was just tired
when truth was i was tormenting myself
for deceiving the wrong person
and for not knowing
who was worth lying for

Mom,
I know you taught me well
I just couldn’t stop myself
now that i fell