After Her (Poem #6)

You’re probably smiling
for being free
drinks in the club
taking women
to get it through the night

Scrolled your way
pass through Tinder profiles
and ended up on someone else’s bed
but among all those girls you tasted
why is her name
still in your head?

On the first few nights
you drunk to celebrate
but days after that
you drunk to silence your heartbeat

What do you do
when you could no longer touch
what you used to hold?

You drown yourself in liquor
until it numbs you to your core