Hangover (Poem #28)

I could never dare look at you in the eye
but when once i did
I swear the way I stared
could’ve had you killed

I may have said when I looked at you
that I was drunk the entire relationship
but did you ever wonder what I meant when I said that?

What I did, when I was with you
could be summed up with what I’d do
when I am wasted

I never took a step back
I swerved all the way to where you are
I did what I think you’d like
without you having to ask

My visions blurred, and focused on you
and for once, I never cared about all that surrounds
I didn’t know that everything I did
could be the most stupid thing I could do my entire life

All I know is that all the time I was doing it
from happiness I thought I could die
So imagine what happened when the alcohol subsided
imagine what comes after
imagine the terrible hangover

When the alcohol left my system
and the toxins seemed hard to drain
I said, “there’s no way I’d be drinking again”
and when you left me with my being completely stained
I said, “there’s no way I’m loving again.”