On the very first day of your absence
it was like my mind and my heart collided
I was blinded, black all over
it was the kind of darkness that made me certain
that it will be dark forever
On the first month of your absence
both my mind and my heart fell apart
later on got into an argument between:
“forget him now, I just can’t and I’d rather not”
On the 3rd month of your absence
my mind surrendered and the heart prevailed
but sadly, no matter the victory
both remained in despair
It’s like my mind gave up trying to come up
with something positive and logical
“you’ll get by, there’ll come another guy
you’ll see the brighter side of his goodbye”
My mind pitied my own heart
it saw the bruises and scars
and then decided that no wise words
or not the smartest soul in this world
could ever heal such type of wound
6 months gone and I guess I finally caught a glimpse of sunshine
“totally over it”
so I said, each step I took I was humming
“finally, finally”
but I guess I was never meant to say that
because across the street you stood
your eyes briefly caught mine
The sight of you
ripped the stitches I tried so hard to sew
your view blocked the rays of sunlight
all the progress came tumbling down
and just like on the first day of your absence
there was this familiar pain
and it was dark all over again.
Forever Winter 