If I Stayed (Poem #68)

I was cheated on, and I left

“You could’ve stayed” people say

 

If I stayed, I could’ve surpassed the memories

he had with his former lover

but if we were to keep loving another year

what difference could it have made?

If loving means constantly counting and keeping track of time

then I still won’t mind beginning again

I won’t mind waking up one morning and saying,

“it’s day one with this man”

for I know that there is a change needed in this life

and it starts with cleansing myself

from the stains I got from the toxic hands

that once touched me

 

“If only I stayed” I say

I know I’d wake up each day with dismay

knowing that the person I am with

is the very person capable of betraying me

 

He inflicted a deep wound

it may heal

but just because it scarred

doesn’t mean everything he did won’t be remembered.
❤️

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Forever Winter

Just reading and writing my way out of this messy adult life! I have transitioned from having piles of notebooks stacked underneath my bed from writing on the internet and allowing people worldwide to read.

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